they say the truth hurts-->

this is just another one of those pistachio boy's mushy posts.

i'm really, really sure that what i'm feeling for him right now is love.

well, first of all, i can't help feeling sad whenever i see him hurt or eating alone. whenever i see him alone, i want to accompany him, whatever it is he may be doing.

and then of course there's happiness. i always feel happy when i know he is. i find happiness whenever he gets passing scores in our tests. i find happiness whenever he is with someone i know he likes.

i also know it's love because i don't need to know he likes me back. and i don't "want" him. just knowing he's alright is enough for me. just seeing him smile already makes my day.

why do i love him? well, it all started with "i like him." and then i realized that he had everything i was looking for in a guy. and then i thought that someone like him deserves someone better than me because i never thought he would be this close to my definition of a perfect guy.

and then i started caring for him, the moment i told myself that he's not my possession, i'm just someone who has a crush on him. soon, it wasn't just that anymore. now it's, i'm someone who cares for him. it's freaky, i know. but i don't regret it.

it's fun. why? because he is my inspiration and one of my sources of happiness!

but that doesn't mean i don't love my friends. i love them, that's the reason why i listen to them and help them in their problems. i don't talk to him, so i can't make sure if he's feeling well or if he has problems that's why i think of him a lot. i always wish the best for my family, my friends, and for him. i love all of them!

<--truth is, it didn't hurt. love doesn't hurt.