i'm bored...

i know. let's take a look inside my mind! yey! ang fun. sige. ready? ok.




well, if you look in front you'll see the VOICES section of my mind. let's take a look shall we?




'you stupid idiotic moron!'
'i'm not stupid!'
'you fu***** as***le!'
'this is stupid!'
'forgive her!'
'i'm tired of forgiving!'
'i need someone to listen to me!' 'you will never have someone to listen to you!'
'LIES! they're all lies!'
'stop talking to me!'
'your life is stupid! it's the stupidest thing i've ever seen!'
'you lied and you know
it!' 'STOP IT!'
'STOP! STOP! everybody please stop! just for a while. please!'
'i have compassion fatigue, i'm tired.'
'i can't go on like this!' 'MY LIFE SUCKS!'
'it's not funny anymore!'





and then here's the QUESTION AND NO ANSWER portion of my mind





'why do you keep messing with my life?!'
'who the hell keeps cutting all the trees in the forest?'
'why do you care?'
'why can't the world stop for just an hour?! i need to sort my problems out!'

'when will all this lying and hurting stop? when i'm dead?'
'why was i stupid enough to leave him there? you finally found someone who wouldn't leave you no matter what and you left him?'
'who's the stupid one who left him in that old school?'
'am i the stupidest person in the world?'
'can you see the sadness behind these smiles?'
'is there any cure for this illness?'
'won't someone tell me that i'm not alone and stupid?'
'why the hell am i jealous?'
'why are you treating me like this?'




oh! and here we see the SENTI THOUGHTS section.




'awit na nananawagan baka sakaling napakikinggan pag ibig na palaisipan sa kanta na lang idaraan...
nag-aabang sa langit.. sa mga ulap sumisilip.. sa likod ng mga tala.. kahit sulyap lang *insert name of my crush here'
'stop think wait a minute, is it love that you really feel?'
'just seeing him smile makes me happy.'
'mapapansin kaya sa dami ng 'yong ginagawa kung. kaagaw ko ang lahat may pag asa bang makilala ka...'
'i need his company right now.'
'if i was given the chance again, i wouldn't let it slip through my hands again.'




ok. and here's the SOLUTIONS part of my mind.





'i could always forget about him.'
'i could always become a loner so that i wouldn't have to worry about friendship problems.'
'nope, suicide never works. it's just plain stupid.'
'i could become a nerd.'
'i could just forget everything that's happened so far.'
'i could continue praying.'
'maybe i could try closing down my mind. just so i wouldn't hear those pesky voices again.'
'i could transfer my brain inside a robot. that would work.'
'i could, i couldn't, wouldn't, shouldn't... kill. no! of course i wouldn't! that's really stupid!'
'i could always resolve to killing my emotions. but i just don't know how.'





well, i guess that's it for today. oh yeah. warning: this tour wasn't for the weak-hearted. sorry.