crystal clear metamorphosis

i had a ym conversation with a classmate last friday. he was trying to guess who my crush is and he got it right. i asked him if i was obvious. he said he could see it in my eyes. i don't know if that was a joke or not but it really surprised me because i was becoming transparent to people.

during my freshman year, i was really, really quiet. i think the only person i speak to in our class were ral and jc. the other ones, well, usuallt they're the one who walk up to me to start a conversation. wahahaha! what's funny is that i've been more talkative this year and people still say i'm quiet.

but anyway, i've started being talkative because i don't to be a mystery to the people around me, even to my friends who claim that they still don't know me that much. but despite that, i don't think i've overdone it. i'm just wondering how people can know a lot about me with just a glance.

it's okay. i think it's pretty cool. only i'm afraid that if they can look through me, they might be neglecting other stuff about me as well. but right now, everything's turning out ok. they haven't made a false statement about me that has destroyed my life so far. but i won't take any chances.

also, i'm starting to be more open to the people around me. i've started talking to a lot of my female classmates during the start of the schoolyear, and right now, i've started talking to some of my male classmates and our adviser. but despite that, i haven't talked to my crush yet, ever since last year. naiinis na nga ako sa sarili kasi ganon ako e. wahaha! sadness.

i know God has given me another chance to get to know my crush but i ignored it. but i won't waste. i'll try to make sure i talk to him before the year ends. we just might not be classmates next year anymore.

that's all for now. like i said, i'm inspired to study. i have to study for our geometry long test but it's way past my bedtime. bye bye! :D